My biggest
concern as I ate breakfast this morning was updating my apps on my iPad and
making sure I had enough ketchup on my eggs. Tomorrow morning my worries will
be slightly, if not completely different. If I get up at 4:30 I’ll have enough time to make breakfast, "take
my kids to school", put my belongings in my new home, and walk to the gas
station to catch the bus to go to the beach for rock picking all before 6.
These are the tasks locals do every morning, and are the tasks I will be doing
for the next week.
Having spent
this past weekend building my home for the week I had so many different
thoughts. Our shack is tall enough to stand on your knees and completely made
out of material we found on the side of the road or in the garbage dump, along
with a handful of nails, a hammer, and a saw. We spent 6 1/2 hours one day
working on our shack... it felt much longer than that. My body felt as if I had
worked a lot longer than that. Which made me start to think about this upcoming
week... we'll be working earlier and longer than I ever had. Most mornings will
consist of getting up between 4-5. Some moments I dread the thought of waking
up and being functional at the time I would normally consider still night time.
But then I remember the families I just helped build homes for. This is reality
for them. There's no "Oh I only
have to do this for one week, I can survive anything for one week."
Thinking this fills me with some guilt and appreciation for my roots. I do get
to come back to my big comfy house at the end of the week. There is no getting
to move somewhere better for them. It makes me hate where I’m from sometimes,
that I’m so fortunate. I get to be in a different country having this
experience of how others live. They can't even dream of doing this, getting to
go to a different country for a gap year/ leadership experience. Having all
these emotions and feelings makes me remember that I must deal with them in a
positive, effective way. I must use my guilt and change it into power to do
something positive with that energy.
The best advice
I've received in reference to this upcoming week is from my friend Ursula who
did "week in the life experience" last semester... she said, "Just
forget everything you've been told about it and keep an open mind"